First of all, fuck you. It’s always been like, you know, an irritating thing that you’d attempted to co-opt the language of feminism and other civil rights struggles to cloak your sexist ideas in bullshit like “Men’s Rights” and calling this sexist garbage “activism.” And for a long time, I think…
On May 14, 2013, I announced that I would begin tracking my physical changes, every day (via self portrait), for an entire year. This past Wednesday, May 14, 2014, marked not only my birthday, but the first anniversary of [what I’ve come to fondly refer to as] my “Year of Change” study.
And here we are. A year (+ change) later…and what have I learned? Well, for one thing, a year ago I sure as shit didn’t know how to frame and focus a selfie. Now? Slightly better, but I think I spend too much time indoors….
In all seriousness though, if this study—brief and biased that it is—showsanything, I believe it reveals a shift, however faint, in my world perspective: the young man on the left is guarded and mistrustful of the camera, and perhaps of himself. Although my intent for each photo was to capture a properly-framed and -focused, neutral expression, even the positioning of my jaw betrays an underlying stubbornness & reluctant discontentment. The Ricky on the right: much more open, much less agitated, and more self-assured…I like to think so, anyway. Maybe it was just that day. Maybe you disagree.
If nothing else*, the contrast between these two representations of my past self show that I’ve grown to look forward to the 20 seconds out of my day when I stop whatever I’m doing, grab my camera (or phone), breathe, relax, and shoot. What do you think?
Now. The next move. If you’ve been following closely, you will have noticed I said this was but the first anniversary of my study—which means (you guessed it) I’m gonna keep goin’ with this one. Mhmm. I’ll keep checking back in with you all every so often (esp. around this time), but I’m not stopping til at least 2020…if ever.
Thanks for dropping by.
COMING SOON: a video recap of my past year in pictures. So stay tuned.